The months of transitional
weather are a bit difficult. There is something in the air we breathe that
unsettles. On one hand the mornings are more fresh,less sweaty, provoking
and inviting to revel in walk or workouts. On the other, the feel of 'pitr paksh'
slows down, emits low energy.
'Shraadh'- the very word
connects one fondly to the dear departed and naturally brings forth the hordes
of memories which make one acutely conscious of the 'disconnect' in flesh and
body and hence emanates sadness, melancholy. The exhortations for
pilgrimage, performing rituals, jap , yagna , daan or visit to the places
of worship or satsang / katha during this period make sense if viewed from perspective of
creating a 'connect' with what is beyond us beside providing requisite healing to
the undefinable malaise.
Despite the low-dom, the days
are precious being exclusively meant for purgation and catharsis through
remembrance, offering of Brahman bhoj, tarpan and other rituals which we
do not even think of in normal parlance. Its natural to feel the conspicuous
presence in absence of the noble souls who have been our parents, kin and now
are in category of pitr or ancestors. I have little knowledge of importance of
all the rituals attached with 'shraadh' but what I very vividly remember is
that even in the days of penury, the halwa and kheer were prepared in big
quantity and offered to whomsoever we could as it meant offering it to
ancestors. I feel its very important to pass this tradition on to the young as
did our parents. There is so much of healing in feeling gratitude as a child, a
member of the clan. It is difficult to recall the names of great grand
father/mother because we hardly ever make efforts to know about them but
atleast 'we are made to' remember them exclusively during this period alone!
Somewhere we can feel their 'ancient, glittering eyes' blessing us from the
skies above and never mind the lump in the throat as thats human, thats what
being alive means as a cog in the chain of generations.