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I have been searching for it for long. All nooks and corners of the places I have been to, resided in are witness to my this search. I looked for it during all the travels I undertook official or personal as it generally met me during the journeys. Much have I tried to find it in papers, scribbles, missives old and new but in vain. The creations I came across gave me a real good hope that these would definitely pave for my meeting with my long lost friend but of no avail. The seasons of all hues have passed by giving me hope sometimes, sometimes despair regarding the encounter I aspired for but the misty breeze of monsoons nor the fall of autumn nor the furious rages of winters have made the hope be realised. But I am quite persistent albeit minus mostly the patience but this time I have been keen to get to meet it come what may as I cannot have lost the precious one with whom the ties were nurtured with pain and passion, with love and care, with sweat and blood, with intensity and sensitivity, with kindness and possessiveness.

There were times when a good pen or a plain white paper were suffice to beckon it. There were times when even in midst of the night it could wake me rightfully amd force me to be with it and indulge in its whims and fancies. There were times when a whiff of fresh air could soak the parched throat and I could sing with full throated ease a duet with it. There were times when a gentle compliment or a voice of sincere appreciation could make me ga ga all over again and I could dance with it romantically looking into its eyes with my hand in hers. Yes, there were times I could cry with my head on its shoulder and its silent patience washed it all-the agonies and tribulations, sorrow and hurt.

I have missed it all these days that it has been away from me. Missed its care and concern for my being, missed its caress and hugs, missed its protection and prodding to come out, breathe in open fully and exhale completely.

My mentors and friends have asked me often asto how it was as they have connected me for long with it. Many a times I have been exhorted to make a focussed search for it and I felt it was nowhere outside. Like 'the presence' it was inside only sulking and lost, a bit hurt by my demeanour towards it as-if it didn't matter as the life does go on-normally whereas in days of the yore it had always enjoyed a prized place, adored and indeed cared for it always had been. There was not a day when I would not spend time with it, make her feel special by holding it lovingly and fondly indulge in its company and the rest of the world was secondary and it was the only thing that was the most precious and valuable, cherishable and the truest friend !!

Its not fair on my part to be casual and care-the-less when it comes to something that has been not just a friend in need but also a friend indeed. I am glad to share that I have found it and I would see to it that I donot make it leave me and I would handle it with care and affection it deserves, give it time and energy sometimes utmost exclusively and make it feel special the way it has always made me feel. I would never never never leave it I have promised to myself because without it I am incomplete, can be forlorn, lost and sunk. I shall atleast set my lands in order and redefine priorties. Having found my 'lekhni' back is indeed making me feel blessed like a chosen child of His.