God's Grace Abundant

 

Do we feel it when we wake up in the morning and find ourselves alive, healthy, opening our eyes to see the new dawn, feel the fragrant freshness , breathe the air that belongs to us, inhale it deeply to start a new day?

Don't we feel it when our child gives us that exquisite loveful innocent smile wishing us good morning and we sip the hot cup of tea or coffee as a treat of a new day, touch feet of the parents if fortunately they are there to make us feel blessed. Do we really feel this during the day when we are able to eat healthy food, have a nap, drink the pure water, listen to the music, or the tune of our own heartbeat ?

Perhaps we are unable to feel it when the going gets a bit tough, when we do our best and get snubbed, cook the choicest dish and go unappreciated, encounter a rough colleague or unjustifiably rude someone whose words and gestures matter, when we have a headache or palpitations due to stress or strain of work, when things just don't seem to go the way we want and desire so intensely.

We are always judging perhaps whether this is what I deserve and that's what I dont deserve atall and also asto why I alone have to be put to tests of patience and why the hell enough is not enough! Sometimes on simple issues we tend to throw the ball to destiny and questioningly we turn to Him whom we find so easily accessible to bear with all our allegations and 'ulahnas' that look, I can take no more so you better take care not to send me this and that suffering or test of time again and again or grief or trauma thats not really my cup of tea to take on per se.

The saner persons saints and gurus we believe in tell us to have patience, accept His Bhaana and move on with sense of surrender and that there is good in everything and just we are not able to fathom it at the nick of the time especially when the tough occasions arise and the unkind times test the best we have.

We all see our greatness flicker at the slightest provocation of pain or hurts, we all struggle to come to terms with situations ans move on leaving a few things behind, carrying a few impressions forward but we move on for sure.

There comes a time for such introspection when we look back. And when we look back- more often than not we end up feeling God's grace in abundance in our riches of health and wisdom , precious treasurable experiences , in evolvement as human beings. This is one such occasion for me to feel gratitude with my head bowed and eyes tearful to thank Him for His gracious kindness to have given me opportunity to work for 38 years that I complete today having started my career as Lecturer in FC College for women, Hisar on this day in 1982. Thank you, God for giving earth beneath my feet to Anabel me stand economically independeny- the grace that givem me an identity as a working woman, an officer thereafter. Its His pure kindness and love for me that even in the dire adversities, I could look up to the hope of a better tomorrow and wait patiently to let the testing times pass. Thank you, everyone my family, friends, mentors. Colleagues who always stood in good stead, cared for me, loved me and supported and never let me feel alone. Your 'saath' is God's grace abundant for me.